I leave scars on my body

i really don't know why,maybe it's because i love the way it felt,the pain,the stinging pain as if it's

washing all my problems away.

i've forgotten when i started cutting myself,if my memory serves me right,

i started cutting myself when i was 15,

i know that i'm not alone,but i'm lucky,i don't cut myself too deeply,just enough to feel the stinging pain....

When i can't handle someone's remark about me,this is what i do ,i cut myself on the arms,on my body,my neck,

concealing them was easy for me since i don't cut myself too deep.i'm a mess...